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My Year of Growth! || Reflecting on 2019

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As the year is nearing its end I thought it would be appropriate to go over my resolutions for the year and see what I did and didn’t do. If you are interested in my original post, where I listed all those resolutions, you can check it out here! I’ll also be writing about how 2019 was for me in general, nothing too much as some of the things are rater personal (you will see what I mean by that).

Lets get into my resolutions of 2019!

Resolutions

As you can see the first one is to post 2 times per week. Yeah, I didn’t achieve this one completely. There were months were I did post 2 times each week, there were months were I posted more than that. But there were also months that I didn’t post at all during some weeks, due to my mental health. I’m especially pleased by my blogging in the past two/three months, I feel like I have gotten into a good rhythm. The second one was to interact with more people. I’m pleased to say that I did achieve this one! 😀

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I wanted to read at least 52 books and I definitely managed to do that. I have read 94 books, so I shot way over that goal. I’m very pleased with how much I managed to read in 2019. I also wanted to complete and catch up to series. This is also something that I managed to do! I don’t have an exact number, but I did focus on reading my series this year (which was the goal all along).

Resolutions

Yeah, these two didn’t happen at all. I actually didn’t do any creative writing during 2019. I did write essays and papers for university but that was it. The reason for that is mostly due to the things I’ll write about when I get to the part where I write about how my 2019 was. Basically I didn’t feel motivated to do these two goals and I didn’t have the mental capacity for them. I’m a bit disappointed, but also not really?

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Yes to both of these! I did achieve both and I’m very happy about that. There really is nothing more to say about this one. I’m very pleased by how many art related things I did this year.

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Resolutions

I did finish university, which I’m very proud of! I also decided to do a Master degree, so I started that this year as well. Because of that I didn’t get a full time job, as I just wouldn’t have the time to do everything. I have a lot of anxiety related to job hunting (which I didn’t know before this year), but I have started looking for a part time job and I’m proud of myself for that. Yes, I have gotten fitter and healthier. I have never felt more comfortable in my body than I do in this moment. I did also explore more of Vienna, which makes me very happy. 😀

There you have it, those were my resolutions for the year! Some of them were successful, some not, but overall I’m proud of how I did!

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Now let’s talk about 2019 as a whole and why this most is called My Year of Growth!

To preface this I need to go back to 2018 for a bit. 2018 was the worst year of my life. Many things happened and my mental health was at an all time low. When December came I felt like I did nothing during the whole year, even though that wasn’t the case. I felt like such a huge failure and disappointment. I struggled so much during that year.

2019 was a tough year for me. The first few months were good, the middle of the year bad and the end (from around October) was good. I still struggled with my mental health (and the other problems that I had), but I found ways to cope and make myself feel better. Bullet journaling and writing a diary helped me with that. Having an outlet like that was exactly what I needed. I might do a whole post about my bullet journal and diary in the future, how I use them and how exactly it helped me (this post is already long enough).

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2019 was a year of self reflection and acceptance for me. Some things that I learned during this year:

  • To not expect myself to be perfect. Or rather whatever was defined as perfect in my head. This is the biggest one, as I was in a vicious cycle because of those expectations. (I’ll leave it at that, as I don’t feel comfortable in sharing more details about that.)
  • To be kinder to myself. I have always disliked myself, both my personality and appearance. I never really felt great about myself as a person. During this year I tried, and succeeded at being kinder to myself.
  • To accept my flaws, but also my strengths. This one goes along with the two previously mentioned.
  • To accept that my mental health problems are a part of me and that they don’t make me weak. As I already mentioned, 2018 was such a bad year for me in regards to my mental health, so this was quite the huge development.

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Because of all of that I’m calling 2019 my Year of Growth. Looking back at this time last year I’m beyond pleased by where I am now. Not everything is amazing, I still struggle and have problems, but I’m not feeling hopeless anymore. While 2019 was a hard year at times, it was also a good one.

Another thing that I need to mention in this post, and also to end it on a positive note, this is also the year that I have gotten into BTS. I found them at the perfect time and they have improved my life in so many different ways! ❤ I might do a post about that in the future, but who knows as it’s all very personal. I just couldn’t not mention them, as they have been a huge past of my life for months (since the end of July to be precise).

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I’m so thankful to my family and friends for supporting me through this whole year, even if they didn’t know all the nitty gritty details (as I don’t like to bother anyone with my problems). I love them all so much! ❤
Thank you all as well, for supporting me and my blog!

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Thank you very much for reading and I hope that you have a wonderful day!

-Anna♥

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Merry Christmas! 🎄

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💖 Merry Christmas everyone! 💖

I hope that all of you will have a wonderful and magical day, no matter if you celebrate Christmas or not. Personally I’m not the biggest fan of this holiday, but I shall try and enjoy myself as much as I can. (I really don’t need to go into detail why I don’t like it.) I’m exited about spending the day with my parents and my best friend!


Thank you very much for reading and I hope that you have a wonderful day!

-Anna♥

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My Blog is 4 Years Old!?!

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Yes, you have read the title of this post correctly. My little blog is 4 year olds today!

Actually, my blogiversary was yesterday but we shall ignore that and pretend it was today (one day doesn’t really make the difference). I blame my headache and BTS for this post being delayed. Basically, yesterday I had a headache and I did nothing productive. I caught up to some booktube videos that I missed during this week of The Reading Rush and many people I follow talked about BTS. So I started researching them a bit and listening to some of their music. I have fallen into a hole and I’m currently watching Run BTS! ep. 30. So there is that as well.

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I don’t actually have anything planned for my anniversary, I just wanted to acknowledge it. The reason that I didn’t plan anything is because my mental health hasn’t been the best this past week and I’m quite busy at the moment. (I may do a giveaway in the future, we shall see.)

Thank you everyone for supporting my little blog! ❤

I have met so many amazing people because of blogging in these past four years and I’m forever thankful for that. I can’t imagine my life without blogging anymore, it’s become such an important part of my life. Thank you for everything! (Which sounds like I’m quitting blogging, which isn’t the case!)

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How long have you been blogging? Let me know in the comments below!

Thank you very much for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day!

-Anna♥

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My Birthday, 1230+ Followers Thank You!! & a little life update

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You might have noticed that I disappeared from my blog (and my social media) since the end of April. Or you may have not, since I wasn’t that consistent at posting during the entirety of April. I haven’t even started writing my April Wrap Up, that shows you just how behind on things I am. Hopefully I’ll be able to get back into the flow of things this week!

Me disappearing wasn’t a conscious decision. I just didn’t work on my blog? And I didn’t check my twitter? I seriously have no idea what was going on with me during this time. Especially since my mental health was rather good. My April, on the other hand, wasn’t the best for my mental health (I’ll write more about that in my April Wrap Up). So I might have needed a break? And then I took one without really planning? 


What happened in my life during the time I was away?

  • I drove to my hometown, or rather I took the bus since I can’t drive. (The ride took around 9 hours, so there was that.)
  • I celebrated my birthday, which was on the 3rd of May. I’m officially 24 years old. I had a wonderful day, which I spent with some of the most important people in my life.
  • I spent a lot of time with my mom. I have seriously missed spending time with her. My mom is simply amazing!
  • I had two sleepovers with my best friend. I loved hanging out with her again, as it has been ages since we last saw each other in person. We watched two movies and a tv show.

Basically I had an amazing time! May has been a wonderful month for me so far and I couldn’t be happier about it.


Thank you for the 1230+ followers!

I know that that is a random number, but it’s been a while since I have thanked all of you for following my little blog. When I started my blog I didn’t think anyone would be interested in following me. Blogging was just something that I wanted to do for myself, to record my thoughts on the books I read. I never expected that so many people would have been interested in my blog. Thank you everyone!

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How has your May been so far? Let me know in the comments below!

Thank you very much for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day!

-Anna♥

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My Bookish and Personal Resolutions for 2019!

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Happy New Year everyone! ❤

I hope that 2019 is going to be a wonderful year for all of us!


Yes, I’m doing a resolutions post! I’m usually not someone who sets resolutions for herself (which I have mentioned quite a few times already). This year I just feel like setting myself some goals, which I’m hoping to achieve.

2018 wasn’t the best year for me, both mentally and physically. I don’t want to go into detail about either of those, so I shall leave it at that. I feel that having goals that I can work towards throughout the year will help me with my mental health. Especially since I have set myself realistic goals (which wasn’t the case in the past – which is also the reason I stopped doing resolutions) and I won’t be taking them too seriously either. Basically I won’t stress myself out if something doesn’t go according to plan, that way I won’t be discouraged either.

Now lets get into my resolutions for 2019!


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Blogging Resolutions:

  • post at least 2 times a week

I want to be more consistent with my blog and 2 posts per week is doable for me. I managed to keep that schedule during December and I can see it working in the future as well. I won’t be too strict about this one, as life is unexpected and I might miss a few posts (who knows what is going to happen throughout the year).

  • interact more with people, on my blog and on other social media

I feel as if I haven’t interacted enough with people during 2018. That’s why one of my resolutions is to change that. I plan on interacting more with people on my blog and other social media.


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Reading Resolutions:

  • read 52 books

This number basically means read 1 book per week and you’ll reach your goal. I’m finally out of my reading slump and I have a feeling that I’m going to read a lot more than this goal. (But I’m also not pressuring myself about it.)

  • complete/catch up to series

I’m in the middle of quite a lot of series at the moment. I predominately read fantasy and those books tend to be part of a series (so I’m not surprised by that). I want to finish/catch up to some of them.


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Writing Resolutions:

  • outline and work on a story

I want to start writing a book. My goal is not to finish my first draft during this year or anything like that. I just want to start working on a book and to do that I need to outline the story. And then actually start writing it. I might do blog posts about my story, once I figure everything out. (We shall see!)

  • participate in NaNoWriMo

I participated for the first time in NaNoWriMo in 2018 and I loved the experience. I did have my own goals and not the usual 50k word-count goal of the event. Still, I loved writing creatively again. I might try the 50k challenge this year, or I might make my own rules again – we shall see when the time comes!


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Art Resolutions:

  • draw at least one piece per month

I haven’t drawn anything in ages and I really miss it. So during 2019 I want to doodle and practice my art skills as much as possible. I want to draw at least one piece per month. This way I can ease back into the habit of drawing. I also want to do some colouring, since I do own a few colouring books and I find it relaxing.

  • go to museums more often

I love going to all kinds of different museums, especially ones that have art. (Which is why this resolution is here.) I didn’t visit museums enough in 2018 and I really want to change that. I want to go to the museums I always planned on going to, but for some reason never did. I just want to experience more art!


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Personal Resolutions:

  • finish university

I’m near the end of my bachelor’s degree. I only have one or two exams left. (It depends, as I’m waiting for the results for one of them.) So I should be done with university rather soon. It is something that I still have to work for, so I’m putting it as a resolution.

  • find a job

I want to get a full time job. I have worked before, but that was for exhibitions and not full time. (I did work 8 hour days, but I didn’t have work everyday.) I’m kind of anxious about this, as I feel that I’m not qualified to get a job? Which is ridiculous! It’s just the one resolution that brings me the biggest anxiety.

  • get fitter and eat healthier

This is something that I’m already working on. I want to continue working out and eating healthier in 2019 as well. I haven’t been happy with the way I look and I wasn’t feeling comfortable in my own body, which is why I decided to do something to change that. I have always been a bit overweight, but this year as my mental health had worsened throughout the year so had my eating habits. I just want to be healthier, which is why this is one of my resolutions.

  • explore more of Vienna

I have lived in Vienna for a few years now and I completely adore the city! ❤ Or rather, what I have seen of it. Vienna is a huge city and I feel as if I haven’t explored it enough. This year I want to go for walks around the city and to places that I have never been before. I want to know more about the city that I’m living in!


Do you make New Year’s resolution for yourself? What are they? Let me know in the comments!

Thank you very much for reading and I hope that you have a wonderful day!

-Anna♥

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Life & Blog UPDATE || What’s been happening with me and my blog lately?!

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Hello everyone, it’s been a while!

In my last monthly wrap up I mentioned that I was planning on doing a life and blog update. So here is that post! Just be aware that this post is going to be long and full of my ramblings as you would probably expect from an update. (Just wanted to give you a heads up before we start.)


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My blogging for the past two months (and the first half of October) hasn’t been the best. Lets be real, I haven’t posted much at all, just a few random posts here and there. I was posting two times per week during the rest of the year (sometimes even more), so this change was quite a drastic one.

So why is that? What has been happening in my life that has prevented me from blogging?

In July I had to hand in two very important papers for university. (One of them was 15 pages long and the other 30.) I also had exams at the end of June and the beginning of July. Needless to say I was very busy during that month and studying and working on the papers was my main priority. I had posts prepared in advance for that month, so my blogging wasn’t too bad in July.

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Then August came and I was just completely drained. I didn’t feel like doing anything at all. And I don’t just mean for blogging, I mean for life in general. Some days I didn’t even feel like getting out of bed. The heat didn’t help either. I’m basically useless when the weather is too hot and August was too hot for me. So it wasn’t the best combination. Plus my mental health wasn’t the best either. (Which I’m not going to go into detail about.)

In September I started preparing for some other exams, that I had at the end of the month and at the beginning of October. I also had work for a few days near the end of the month. Basically I still wasn’t motivated to blog, or do anything really. This past semester of university completely drained me of all energy. Even when I had the time to blog, which wasn’t often, I just never felt like doing it. Plus I wasn’t reading much, and when your blog is primarily about books that isn’t a good thing either. (I just had no inspiration to blog.)

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October has been a lot better so far! Hopefully it will stay that way. I have a lot more energy now and I feel motivated to do many things, which I’m very happy about. It does help that my mood has been a lot better as well! Plus my mental health has been better as well. The job that I mentioned already, I continued doing in October. Now I’m done with that and I have some more free time! (It was a convention type of deal, so the job was only for a short period of time.)

So that is where I have been and what I have been doing for the past two/three months.

I have just been very busy and didn’t have the time/motivation for blogging. But that is about to change! 😀 I’m feeling very motivated to revive my blog again and to post more often! I also can’t wait to interact with people once more, since I haven’t been doing that lately either. I have missed talking to all of you!

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My plans for the future:

  • Post at least two times per week on my blog. This seems manageable, though I’m not setting exact days on which I have to post. Some weeks I might post more than others and I’m completely fine with that.
  • Read a lot more. Due to being as busy as I was (and as unmotivated) my reading suffered as well. Now I’m finally feeling like reading again and I couldn’t be happier!
  • Visit my hometown. I’m going there with my dad this weekend and I’m very exited about that! I haven’t been back home in ages and I’m looking forward to spending a few days with my family.
  • Find a job. I plan on finding another one, since I’m done with the one I just had. I really have no idea what I would like to do, I guess I just have to look and see what is available.
  • Do things for university. I always have stuff to do for university, be it studying or researching or writing. There is always something.
  • Prepare for NaNoWriMo. Yes, I’m participating this year. I plan on making a separate post announcing that and my plan. Here is my profile, if you want to add me as a buddy! 😉

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That is everything for today! I’m just very pleased to be back and to blog again, it feels amazing working on a new post. Let me know how you have been lately! What’s new with you? What amazing books have you read lately? I just want to chat and catch up with all of you!


Thank you very much for reading and I hope that you have a wonderful day!

-Anna♥

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Life Update and Q&A Announcement!!

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My three year blogging anniversary is coming up at the end of this month. Last year I ended up doing a Q&A to celebrate it and I had a lot of fun. SO I decided to do that once again this year! (Since I don’t have the money for a giveaway at the moment, hopefully in the future.) Also, here is my previous Q&A if you are interested in checking it out.

Feel free to ask me anything you can think of! Bookish, personal and any kind of questions are welcome!


Now onto the little life update that I promised in the title.

This Friday (the 13th) I handed in my 30 page research paper. I had only two weeks to properly work on it, as that was the time my classes and most of my exams were done. I’m just sooo happy and relieved to finally be done with it! Deadlines like these cause me anxiety and it always feels wonderful when they successfully pass. I’m also done with all my exams, which is great news (well, until the end of September, beginning of October that is).

That means that I’M FINALLY FREE!!

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I have finally time to read, blog and do all the other things that I love! Now I’m going to be a lot more consistent when it comes to blogging, which I’m quite exited about. I have a lot of catching up to do, as I’m really behind on both comments and blog posts from the people I follow. I’m really sorry for the wait. I shall try and catch up to everything as soon as possible!

What do I have to do next in my life?
  • I do have another paper that I need to hand in at the end of the month. But that one is 1/3 the length of the one I already handed in, so it should be a piece of cake. Plus I can write it in English, which I find easier than German. With that done, I’m completely free from university things until the next semester (though I will have to study for future exams, but we shall ignore that until later).
  • I plan on looking for a job. Actually I plan on getting a job. I have no idea what I would like to do, but I just want to find something and earn some money. Starting next week I will go and look at offers and apply for things that sound interesting. Hopefully everything will go well on that front!
  • Survive the summer. I just really don’t like the heat and sun (I get sunburnt way to easily). I just can’t wait for the autumn weather!

That is all that I have for today. How have you been lately? What has been happening in your lives? Let me know in the comments!

Thank you very much for reading and I hope that you have a wonderful day!

-Anna♥

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